Despair? Look to God's goodness

Psalms 42:11 Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.


I've been touched very deeply in my heart recently by several things God is doing for us. He is working through people around us. It is interesting that when you feel like you haven't a friend in the world, when things seem really dark and you pray half hearted, you stay in that emotional place and sometimes the feelings get worse. I spent a few years in despair not really understanding how close God really is to me and how much He cares and wants to help. 


Things right now are awesome and at the same time difficult but I don't feel low or down in the depths of despair. I am able to rejoice in my heart because I am happy. I pray and talk to the Lord and try my best to lay the hard stuff on Him and just turn it over to Him (this takes practice). The rest of the time I am surrounded by His creation and the people He sends into my life. The strangest needs are being met like a neighbor who is moving dirt soon and has decided to fill the whole beside the house for me. I didn't ask him to do this and he knows I have no money but he sees the need and is determined to do it. The most interesting part about these random kindnesses is the people are genuine, they are not looking for something in return or to boast. 


One of the best parts about my job and jobs in the past is being able to be of service to others. My heart is made so that I am the happiest when I can do something to help out. I am a nurturer by nature. I don't have to have something in return for what I do. The Lord puts things in my heart and I try to do what He asks for someone. I am not perfect of course I still have to battle the negative feelings everyone else does so I'm not bragging here but I am at my best when I am trying to do something for a person or an animal. 


The point of all this writing is through believers and non-believers all things come from God. He gives prosperity  to us to do His work by sharing it and spreading it around. He speaks to people's hearts and softens them. I am thankful for neighbors, friends and caring family but I thank God for the goodness He instills in people and his creatures. All things come from Him and He so desires our love in return.